Alright, I feel dumb about this, but I feel like everyone in here has made a dumb post before, so I don't care.
I'm over here causing myself some anxiety. Like, everything has gone really well with this girl, I'd say. But, embarrassingly, since I've been in my own head so much lately, I checked Match and saw that she appeared to still be checking it out regularly. No quarrels, really, we're not an official thing. But I'd be lying if I said it wasn't a bit disappointing. If she was into me, she wouldn't be checking, right?
In turn, now I'm stressing about whether to bring up the fact that I'm not dating/planning to date anyone as long as we're hanging out. I'm admittedly scared of her responding by letting me know I'm not option one. Why? I'm never option one. Seriously. Never. But we've gone out four times, have had some intimacy and she joked once (after forgetting if we had had a discussion about a topic) that her forgetfulness makes it seem like she's dating a bunch of dudes. Which she then said clearly not, because she couldn't remember details about one. So maybe that's the truth? Maybe I am option one?
All I know is this dating shit can make you go insane. Like, I need to know because I can't be one of many options. But at the same time I don't want to bring it up and risk screwing shit up.
Okay, I'm done. That felt good.