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Originally Posted by dmbdreamingtree
So I just dropped out of medical school for various reasons (non-academic).
Feeling pretty crummy about the future and generally about myself. What is/are some of the lowest points you've faced and made it through?
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So earlier in the year I decided to get a full-time doctor. This is the first doctor patient professional relationship I've had since I was a child and was forced to do it. I figured since I'm approaching 40 it's about that time and I have insurance so why not?
Come to find out we have a mutual acquaintance who I worked for in the past who did his residency with my doc. So I go to doctor once a month because the covid vaccine basically made my heart blow up, and by that I mean it caused me to have an enlarged heart. The good news is that I can basically live with it. But now I have to carry something in my wallet stating that I have it for some reason. Also I have to drastically change the way I do everything health-wise and I am working on it.
Long story short, don't sweat it. Don't be like my doctor and go through all that s*** to figure out that you don't want to be a doctor. Whatever Noble conceptions you have of the profession you don't know whether you like something until you're doing it. Imagine spending half a million dollars on an education for a line of work that it turns out you hate.
The rest of us out here if we start a job we hate or even get a degree in a discipline we hate, we probably aren't out as much money as we would be if we were a doctor or lawyer. Or put another way if we start a job we hate we can always leave.
I think we need to think the way we do professional degrees. Instead of someone taking out a bunch of debt or someone else investing in them to the tune of hundreds of thousands of dollars, why not just have pre-med be literally some sort of apprenticeship for a doctor? I mean that's the way it used to be done. And it is still possible to become a lawyer through an apprenticeship.
When greed and education mixed it was just a bad idea. It got worse in the seventies when student loans were invented. Now we have institutions with fancy buildings and facilities, subpar instruction and it's just a waste of money. So perk up. Maybe change the way you think about things and realize that every second you're alive is another passing chance to turn it all around.
On some real s*** though, I've been trying to turn s*** around for 13 years and other than making a little bit more money, I still plan to blow my f****** brains out when my parents pass if nothing else changes. Pretty much sticking around on this Earth for them. I keep the bullet I plan to use in my junk drawer. Don't worry. I'm okay for now. I'm hoping in the meantime my life will change and I'm trying to manifest good things but realistically if it hasn't changed in 13 years other than some more income I don't think it's going to change at all.