Re: What is your craziest, most extreme irrational fear?
I was holding off on this, but I'm just gonna say it. My biggest fear is not falling. I've dreamed of freedom so many times yet I always manage to float freely.
I'm scared to fucking death of wasps, yellowjackets, and hornets, but not bumblebee or honey bees. That's because they sting for no fucking reason and are legitimately fucking mean. They serve no purpose on earth. Anyway, I have nightmares sometimes, since I was really young and something happened, that millions, thousands, billions of wasps are chasing me...I run, get in a car, and they keep up. I jump in water, they follow me down and sting me...and they keep coming, until I suffocate/asphyxiate and die.
When I was real young, I learned I was allergic to wasps. I got stung. Everyone thought I was freaking out and being a drama king but otherwise fine. From what I understand I was left alone for about 5 minutes and my aunt came back inside (we were having a cookout) and found me unresponsive. I was clinically dead when the ambulance arrived 20 minutes later. I'm not sure how, I guess with an epi pen and modern technology, they saved me. I spent two days in the hospital because they wanted to make sure not having oxygen for probably close to 5-10 minutes didn't permanently damage my brain and that there were no other complications. Turns out, your body can retain oxygen for some time after your mechanisms stop working, but not very long. I now have about 3 epi pens, one in the car, and two I keep different places like work and home.
To this day I fucking hate wasps, yellowjackets, and hornets. I will run like a fucking sissy and start crying. I wish I was kidding, but I'm not.
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{Chris}
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